change?am i?

well actually i wanna tell you this...but it doesn't feel good to share this to u i think....
i dono when how where i start to have this kind of thinking ....after so many time in relationship this really my first time have this kind of problem.
i feel like i have lost my self i dono why i just feel like this is not the previous me...
even my self will wondering where did the previous me go???hmmmmmmmm
how i treat my girl?i actually can put everything on my girl no doubt....anything.
but this time i dono when it start to feel like i have nth that wanna share with you , that really kill me i really feel bad bout that cox u suppose to be the one who i always wanna talk to...izit just too long din meet i blur ady? i nvr like talk from phone and text too much actually...i prefer we meet and sharing.that what i prefer....
now not even awhile we chat i ady dono what to say...omg it really damn awkward!!!!fmlllllll....
how i feel this few day??hmmm i feel like do anything what i want don wanna care ...nobody can stop me and that really how i feel...
i know the way i act this few day is really hurting you but you still like you still will tell me 'no worry' 'im fine' ' im ok'...that actually make me feel worst cox i know u not ok...but u just being u ...still think for my own good.....something i just want you to treat ur self better don care bout my feeling....maybe that will make me feel better.....
guess now i already lost the mature mind like comfirm that you gonna be my future...becox all i see now is finish my study then work first...im sorry to say but before i got my target all this still  cant be real to me....i dono when i got this kind of though...damn...im hurting you now i know and i dono what should i do...i hope i can fixed it and bring everythg to a better way....
i know you love me so much...i will try my best ....
missing you so much....

SOUL...goneeeee

I don't know how and why but im just feel like leaving the life i had now.
Not the Love , Family ....but my soul..the thing that i love to do...DANCE...
i just felt so tired with it with the problem that we all had...i hope i can really enjoy it not giving my self more stress because of it...i hope it is something that i can enjoy i can do when i stress.
Now i just feel like it kinda meaningless for me....feel lazy...i just feel like i should quit for awhile first...
maybe is the people make me feel this...wonder...

Reality?Dream?

I don't know it been how long i never update my blog already.

but i have feel to release this life shit at here now...

well...i never want believe about this shit!!!hope it really just a dream so bad!!!!
I don't know what the fuck is wrong with me but im really sorry to what have i did it just so wrong...

i really hope it not happen hope it just a dream...but...i cant lie ...

i know after that shit it not good for you...i should say it not bloody fucking good...i should put some responsible on that...

i have something to tell you which is im pretty sure that im drunk on that day but im still know what happen just cant control it...

so i know it my fault...!!!should stop it at the first place...sign...

well...and more wrong bout this is about the feeling...

i not scare to admit that i have the feel...cause i have the feel on a lot of different people but it just how different the feeling...
i really don't know what is wrong with us...i miss the moment we are together like best friend. Now there too much happen between us until there too much thorn .i want to throw away the bad thing that happen before and just back to old us cause i never wanna lose a best friend if i had the choice.

Now there nothing i can do and dare to do already... all happening is really freak me out..OMG!!!!it totally a drama for me ... just pray hard that it not real...i know i impossible and i already ruined everything ....i am the fucking ass hole here...i should have more beware about this...should not step in...haih

i really hope there something i can do about this to fix this ...

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i know i have no right to say this but i do hope everything will be normal back between us and you can move on and found someone that really really love you and treat you like an angel.finger cross pray for this.

Im a GEMINI.
just realize that im actually alone.when i was mad i was sad i wan jealous i really need sum1 to talk to but whn i look at my phone thr nobody thn i can text...so sad ?!hah...
i dono since whn my brain sudd gt alot shit to think til i hate it...whr is the 1 can ignore and jus chill with  everythg...this feeling suck..I AM LOST!
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half of it because of u!!yah it U...i kinda throw all wat i had before cox of da feeling...hate this feeling...i love and i hate...wat actually goin ON...u let me feel bad let me jealous thn nite after chat awhile i almost can forget wan i jealous wat i hate but the other day the same thg happen again...u kinda ignore me and how are we gonna go futher like this...i really wan to tell u tat i really HATE u but even text u nw i olso worry ...feel like im a fucking annoying guy...

but i won gv up..since u say u busy thn i gv u time...let see wat could happen nxt...
SO NOW WEE CHENG CHEANG IS DIE.FOREVER ALONE.

复杂？简单？

好了那么久没写了虽然应该没人知道这部落格的存在啦还是要发泄下拉。
朋友？其实代表什么呢？是不是很复杂的事呢？我也不知道了。。。

其实我想说我的朋友啊以前还像哥儿们的我们那时候不好吗？感情多么不错啊。。。
开开心心的。为什么现在要那么尴尬呢。。。
想想你表白那时，其实喜欢一个人是没错的，没得怪谁的我知道感情是不可以控制的。。。
那晚说了算当做没发生过，就说以后像以前那样，我开始尴尬可是慢慢都学着接受，可是你。。。其实我知这么说很坏很不好可是如果真·的我想说下没坏。。。每个人都会有脾气，可是是不是有时要控制下改改下呢？？？我不知啦。。。为什么就是要弄到好像很多事都那么复杂？不是说当做没事像以前那样吗？可是为什么现在会小事大事都那么敏感啦。。。问不问？约不约？这些问一个全部知道就好啦需要那么介意吗？都没有别的意思。。。

我没有讨厌的意思啦。。。
就是因为朋友才那么在乎。。。不然什么都不用管啦拿自己来气吗？
真的还是不明。。。还是女人都那么敏感的？
哎哟想想都头痛。。。

到底是对还是错？？

拒绝了朋友参加ABG不知道是不是对的决定。。。
为了你我想了很多就是因为我尊重你所以有什么我都会想和你商量想知道你到底介不介意。。。可惜。。。
好！算！我拒绝了。。。满脑都想着要进步。。。我不知道你在想什么可是我们停在这程度都有好一段时间了。。。现在都是为了钱才跳舞不是为了进步而跳了。。。那感觉慢慢不见了。。。所以我要尽快自己加油自己去学多点。。。找回我的感觉。。。

最近你搞什么无聊东西的。。不是说不支持可是我真的觉得如果那么忙还要用那么多钱大家又不是很得空。。。没必要咯。。。还是这是你现在想走的路线了？

这种生活我真的接受不到。弄到自己很烦很烦啊。。。啊啊啊！！！！！
救命啊！！！！

Im TOTALLY lost!!!I DONO WHR CAN I SHARE THIS SHIT ADY

ohh goshhh...helpme!!!!damn it...serious shit...fml...
well...today 1march2012...sudd mr.B ask me wether wanna join em go for a comp...at the first place i was really interested cox i knw i really can improve my self in dance skill...but thn everythg nt really smooth i need to talk to my 'daddy' st...hmmm i discuss with him wat i wan....althought he say jus go ahead wat lah he don mind lah i can feel he don really like it ..well it actually ady in my expectation.
after tat mr.B asking me again he say daddy say let me choose...WAHHHHHH...let me choose??!!
do u knw how pressure is tat actually...i wanna knw r u mind ...cox if u mind thn i jus won join it fuck it...haiz...
so damn susah lah this all kind relation...aiyooo...nw i serious dono wat to do wat to choose ady...i knw the answer later comfirm will cause WARRR  de...i hate this fucking hate this...damn it....

GOD IF U HEAR ME PLS TEACH ME WAT TO DO...T.T