Reality?Dream?

I don't know it been how long i never update my blog already.

but i have feel to release this life shit at here now...

well...i never want believe about this shit!!!hope it really just a dream so bad!!!!
I don't know what the fuck is wrong with me but im really sorry to what have i did it just so wrong...

i really hope it not happen hope it just a dream...but...i cant lie ...

i know after that shit it not good for you...i should say it not bloody fucking good...i should put some responsible on that...

i have something to tell you which is im pretty sure that im drunk on that day but im still know what happen just cant control it...

so i know it my fault...!!!should stop it at the first place...sign...

well...and more wrong bout this is about the feeling...

i not scare to admit that i have the feel...cause i have the feel on a lot of different people but it just how different the feeling...
i really don't know what is wrong with us...i miss the moment we are together like best friend. Now there too much happen between us until there too much thorn .i want to throw away the bad thing that happen before and just back to old us cause i never wanna lose a best friend if i had the choice.

Now there nothing i can do and dare to do already... all happening is really freak me out..OMG!!!!it totally a drama for me ... just pray hard that it not real...i know i impossible and i already ruined everything ....i am the fucking ass hole here...i should have more beware about this...should not step in...haih

i really hope there something i can do about this to fix this ...

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i know i have no right to say this but i do hope everything will be normal back between us and you can move on and found someone that really really love you and treat you like an angel.finger cross pray for this.